A funny thing has happened. Well, maybe it isn't that funny. Though, it's not particularly sad either. Honestly, it's probably the most mundane thing to have ever happened to anyone in existence. And yet, it fills me with awe and hope.
I moved from the west coast to the Midwest approximately one month ago. I can't be bothered to investigate the exact date of my flight, but somewhere between the 21st to 24th of April sounds about right to me. And while it has been somewhat of an adjustment, at times stressful due to loneliness, minimalist living, general anxiety issues, and allergies, I might actually be happy. I often think about my state of mind; a never-ending source of grump (so it seems). I find it both interesting, and frustrating that my irritability is shrouded with a dense fog that I can't ever seem to break my way through. And while this demeanor is generally the norm, it seems as though maybe the gusty prairie might actually be clearing the felled clouds of dissatisfaction. Since leaving California, I have a sense of clarity that I never knew was possible. While I've often felt an incessant thrumming of creative energy, my ability to focus on how to direct that energy was never quite there. Additionally, how to spend free time was often met with panic due to the looming specter of finite energy and resources, leaving me with choice-paralysis and feeling unproductive (read: unfulfilled). In this past month, the thrum and hum of creativity has been just as loud, but inspiration has finely begun to lightly spark (and possibly ignite). I see hope on the horizon as I finish reading book after book and feel neither guilt, nor urgency to rush my way through to the last page; I am legitimately enjoying my journeys rather than desperately attempting to reach my destinations in haste. I've regained my ability to have contemplative moments. I felt inspired to share a slice of life on my blog after weeks of silence. I sense the beginning of something marvelous. I'm ready to break myself open and share, unbeknownst to me, what has been gestating within. Stayed tuned.
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AuthorHeather Jacobs is a creative professional with over a decade's worth of experience in content creation. Her skills range from, but are not limited to, creative, copy, instructional, and technical writing. Archives
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